ctrl-z

ctrl-z is an undo button

These days i was doing my assignment using my computer. every times when i've done some mistake i would press ctrl-z button to undo the things. i become used to it. then when i did my other assignment manually, every times i made mistake i will think of the undo button. this things also happened for my room mate. wew

From this experience, i was wondering if i have an undo button in my life. what would be happened? my life will be change. i will press my button undo again and again every times when i made a mistake. even when i make a wrong decision.

but 1 thing for sure i would not learn from what i've done. and i won't be who i am now. i thank God that we don't have an undo button in our life. coz even though rice become a porridge but it do good for our health. ^^ cheers....

Singapore

i just realize. God is just amazing.

Hi!!!!! i'm back!! after my loong adventure^^. i'm at one of the smallest country in the world...: Singapore...^^ yup a small country. they don't have domestic airport. ^^

Actually, i'm doing my history assignment now. just want to take a brake and tada...!! i'm here now. type this post.

the thing that motivate me to write this post is.... i'm at singapore now. studying in NAFA. being alone in other country. This is my first time being alone without my family for such a long time.

God just wake me up and tell me that i'm blessed. i could be here. alone and survive all by myself. not even afraid of being alone. i have a phobia about being alone when i was a kid. it was haunted my life until the end of 2009.

i went to Singapore for hols with my friends and for the first time in my life going overseas without my family. then my adventure was begin.
frankly, in this hols trip. i'm not afraid of being alone. i just cool with it. since then i have no doubt to going here for having my degree.

since then God guide me and i just following His path. when i do it. it feels amazing. the way God open and lead me into His path is just in time and it is beautiful.

now i'm sitting on my bed, in my room, in singapore. Hugging my pink. if i think again and again, just being me now it was impossible. God make Things being possible.

Thank You Daddy God.>.<

PS: good night everyone and a good night too from pink^^

see different side

sometimes, people fight just because things in a different side.

i was chat with my friend when this thing popped in my mind. we were talking about church and what's the differences between it. when we explain about why things goes like this and that. what were the reason behind it. i think people has a quarrel or didn't agree for something just because they are seeing things in a different side.

just like a stone. you will see a different surface on every inch of it. on 1 side you would say it has a smooth surface. but someone on the other side won't agree with it coz it has a rough surface.

the key was just on which side we look at and what is our priority.

when we argue about anything. just listen about what your opponent think and try to understand them before you said what is on your mind.^^

God bless you friends...^^

Every girls dream.

inside every woman lies every girls' dreams

I just realize that when i watch TV drama. i just realize that inside my heart, there is a little girl who dreams about her prince on a withe horse. That dreams of every girl makes Drama movie exsis from the beginning and forever.

What i learned is Tv Drama created meant to fulfill every woman's heart and imagination.

just imagine, when someone that handsome or pretty. likes you. and will treat you as you want. it just felt like heaven on earth.

But it's not always goes that way in the real life.


Gbu my dear friends...^^

Happy Birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you.. Happy Birthday, happy birthday, Happy birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to my dear Mommy and Sister Kezia

hi!!! a lot of birthday party lately. my sister's and my mom for my family only. Still have some my friends' b'day party. Huf. i want to share you something about b'day party...

This is about my big sis b'day party. She is 20 now and 4 her b'day. we made a surprise 4 her. we bought a cake and at half past 12 am we wake her up and sing a happy b'day song. we also arrange some candle in the form "20" and "K" letter.
Thisi is the pictures...



When i prepare it. um... i felt kinda jealous to my sis. why my family looks love her more than me.

Something inside my heart say, "don't be jealous!". "God had gave you the best present ever and you still complain???" yup. it felt like a slap on your face. i just remember how God gave the present to me

It was on 8th January. I just celebrating my birthday with my Ex-Boyfriend Adri. we talk and do a lot of things together. Then suddenly my phone rang.. it was a call from an agency who done all of my university registration things.

I hang up the phone and said," Hi Ce!!!! Is there any good news for me??"

And she announce That Me and my friends(red: Yohana and bebeK) is accepted to Nanyang Academy of Fine Art(NAFA) with TGD(red: kinda subsidy from Singapore Goverment). That was the best day of my life!!!


God answer my prayer. He answer it in His way. it's just wonderful!!!

Thx God..

God Bless you all

The pic of my audition

This is the pic. not much.. but this all i have.

this is me..^.^ after change into my costume.


This is my lucky number.... 123... a lucky number hope could drive me to my dream.

My life will neeeeEEEEVVvvvEEeeeeeeeeeerrRRRR EeeeeEVVVVVVVVVVvvver Be THE SAME again!!

God bless u all

The audition day

Sorry for the late posting. Thx 4 Daniel who suport me to write this post..^.^

This is the day of my audition. Saturday, 21th May 2010 was a day that i would never forget. Very early in the morning i woke up at 5 a clock in the morning but 6 4 bali's time. Then took a bath. i choose my best outfit but not the audition costume. then woke my mum up. then we brought all things. i had brought 2 costume in case if there were any not willing things happened.

we took a cap and went to Kuta Galeria Central Park. I saw a little crowd in front of the registration tent. hum my heart relief to that coz the one joined the audition won't be as much as here in Surabaya. so i started to queue. After 15 minutes nothing happened..

30 minutes....

1 hour..The committee move and told us to lined up. he said," the left is 4 solo and right is 4 group" so i move from right to left. after 20 minutes i find out that i'm wrong!!!!!!! the right line is 4 the solo and "i was in the right line" so hi have to move back and start to queuing again. fiuh..

When i move someone ask me and talk to me. his name is Made. he will sing in that audition. i think he is rating his opponent at that time. but that was quiet entertaining coz i can reduce the nervous feelings.^^

No long after that, someone say to us to do the TV things. Shout such as "indonesia Got Talent!!!!" Or "Indonesia bangga memilikimu" and etc.. um me? of course i joined the other to shouts.. i made it as a worming up.^.^ and of course i could got a snap on TV..hahahahaha(if you see in TV Indonesia Got talent for Bali audition and saw a flash of blue plaid shirt with an English Flag Tie. Hurry up tell me..hehehe.

Ok that was how the audition begin.

i need to wait around 5 hours to hear my number called. it was 123. a lucky number..(yay..!!!) when i was waiting there was a stage inside the area. and everyone who were participate could perform their talent for preparing and entertaining purpose. i do my best at the morning. but could get the max coz still have to do a lot of worming up. i have some story when we were waiting and perform. at first a lot of people want to do their part. at the afternoon. the committee started to ask people to perform. Then The Hip hop Group started to perform.. They imitate Mj( king of pop) quiet good. they also dance and do their best. Then it goes to The Sissy group. yup! sissy man. they make their face and all things just like a women. its not just that, they also beautiful..>.< they sing just like a woman. waw!!!>.< The worst is a men. with men appearance, long hair(could tolerate that) but sing india song for woman. complete with the dance. hahahahahaha he need a couple and trees then it would all complete.. hahahahaha!!!!!

Before the audition time i do some practice and pray.. always pray... Ask God to Sing with me. And i keep saying to my self that the judge wasn't someone i have to afraid of.

At the time... I made it!!!! i sing so clearly. have no mistake.. but dunno it could impress the judge or not. hehehehehehehe.. hope so.


Now i'm waiting 4 the announcement. Hope could enter the next audition..>.<

I've done my best and now. let God do the rest..

GBU all... ^^

dun't know what to say

this is the post when i lose my motivation in my singing practice..

Hum This is not suppose to be happened. i have an audition this Saturday and still can't sing clearly as i wish i could. i don't know how to do it well i though. this Saturday i will sing Over The Rainbow and have no idea what gonna happened. i'm not planning on lose again. but!!! i have to wake up!!! and start to sing again. sing,sing and sing. this is my dream. and i won't let it go. i know i have nothing. i can't do it alone. but, i have God beside me. and He won't make me lose.if i win i will thank Him. I want to be a history maker. me myself can't do that. with Him i Could. but, if i lose than i will thank Him for the experience. that means i have other things to do and if i lose i will ask Him what i have to do.

God please don't make me give up..

In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen..

Be sure and you can do it!

This is something i learn when i take some salto class

When you want to do something, like a new thing or something that you not sure of doing it just be sure and do it in the right way. when i take the salto lesson i just got this.

ok maybe you wondering.. What the heck she was doing in salto class??? yup!!! i take the salto class, i mean the jumping and rolling things class. last week, my friend ask me to join the class since he know that i've been in the holiday already and have nothing to do. last week i can't attend the class so, today i come to the gym. has no idea what i'm gonna do. i was late. the other had started the class. i did some preparation(i run and do the split.). when i just finished my preparation they just started the front flip class. so i joined them and doing what the instructur says.

At first, i can't do it so well. i bummped around 5 times... oh no maybe more. luckyly there was the huge mattress around the drop off area. every time i bumped in the mattress i just think can i do it? coz i haven't do front flip before. all i do at the first is just jump. i jump as high as i can and hooop bummp the mattress. then the instructur say that i can do the front flip. starting with jump and front roll. for the first time i just not sure and ended with bumping again at the mattress without rolling. the second time i say to my self, "what are you afraid of? just jump and front roll it's just a jump and front roll meter you can do it!!!" then i did it. no long after that they said e ready for the real front flip. they say to me to do it and then the fears come. i tried around 5 times and not even rolling because of the fear. i took some break looking to my friends do the flip. then i just curious and try the front flip once again. and...




I did it!!!


this is the secret...
before i do the front flip i just think to do it think that it was an easy things to do. i said to myself," just do it!!".and.. you know the ending.

Even the front flip not as good as others, at least i can do the air rolling in front flip. that was enough for today. maybe more for tomorrow.


Thanks God for the experience today. and thank you for keeping me so well. i even not break my bone...

For my friends, Rudy, Victor, Bagus, also guys from HBS Ryan and Chemmy. Thanks for the support.
just looking for some fit pictures but can't find them.

ok

God Bless you all^^

The memoirs of junior high

when i make this post, I do rely miss my junior high time

Before I start to type this post, i saw some picture of Kartini celebration in my Junior High. It's a celebration to celebrate the independence of a woman. the independence of going to school, earn education, and also the independence to work. in Indonesia, people will celebrate this even with using traditional cloth and has some competition about it.

I always love Kartini day. It has no class and all the thins is just about the traditional thing and the competition of course. then, using the traditional clothes. all the jarik, sangul, makeup and accessories. it all make me exciting.

Ok back to the topic. A lot of people would say that senior high is the best moment in their life. For me, it is junior high. that time when i felt friends is someone harmless. someone who will stand by me. What a naive person. yeah.. but that day was the best days i ever had. when all of the teachers and all of your friend around you. the first time i do some crazy things in school. such as Escape from the class or eating in the class and the sleeping in the morning gathering being scold by my homeroom teacher. i can laugh for those things now.


This pic was taken when we went to a village called Peniwen. we has a lot of fun there. live with the villager. this picture is when we go to our friends house.


This is when we have study tour in dayang sumbi. hope can take picture like this again someday...


This is our class. we took some picture even we are not allowed to bring any camera to school..^.^

Hope could hang out with you again guys... Have a blessed day..

God Love You..

Vanness Wu

The person who inspire me a lot


Vanness Wu like we know is an entertainer. he is famous and has a lot of fans (include me). The thing that i adore from him so much is his love to God. even he has every thing. he could do every thing easier than everyone(one thing he would do it harder than everyone is looking for a good wife that is fit him but i believe he will find her). his life is just like perfect. but he love God so much. this is a rare combination now days.

in this era of capitalism, life is just about how to be happy. how to find happiness. people live in a hedonism lifestyle. they do everything to get money. they said sex and drugs is just a toy. in this kind of world we life an entertainer, which live with all glamorous things could say NO TO ALCOHOL, SEX, And DRUGS. he is so amazing right?

The real Hero here actually the one who Change him. Jesus Christ. God has catch him when he lost. God has renew his life till we know Vanness now(you are blessed Vanness).


The things that i learn from him are:
- To always do my best.
- To always depend on God in everything in my life.

I hope to meet him someday. say thakz to him for being my inspiration and know him more.not just in his character in TV. but know his real personality.

GOD Bless you always Vanness and all of us also...

Create to do something

Hi today i want to share you something.

I got this when i watch a movie titled "A Christmas Carol"
This Film actually lil bit creepy. The 3D was good. The sound and the music also clear and great. But the main character is ugly and creepy. and the story it selves creepy. still this film was a good film to watch.

This story remind me about Donal Duck and Uncle Scrooge story. The name also Uncle Scrooge.

Uncle Scrooge was a stingy man. he has a lot of money. He work every single day. when Christmas come, he said to his employee to work on Christmas day. at that Christmas night, he has a great Experience with 3 spirit. the first is the spirit of the past. second is the spirit of gift. and 4th is the spirit of death. in that story tell how uncle scrooge fly with the spirit and see peoples life. he saw how his employee life. how they eat. until the end he saw his death. its frightening himself. than he know that his life is not just about looking for more money. but for giving. he has a lot of money and he is capable of giving it to poor people or to people who need it.

i learn 2 things..

1st is to giving and to be generous. to caring people around me.
2nd is to complete God's plan.

We born to this earth to complete our job. to complete God's plan. What is His plan upon us?? Do it...

God bless you always....

Story about anger

this is a story about how to reduce your anger

when i was a child my papa told me to control my anger. at that time, my life was full of anger. so he told me this story.

There once was a boy who was easily got angry. Everyday and every time he got angry. This condition make his friend stay away. not just his friend, his family don't like him very much. he break his mom's heard and make his father don't want to talk to him everyday.

one day when the little boy angry, his father took him to the front of his door room and talk to him, "hey kid! every times when you got angry hammer this pin to the door."

he did it.

at the first day, he has 20 pins. sometimes he has less sometimes he has more until one day he wasn't hammered any pin.

Then Father looked at the door. It was full of pin. Little boy said he didn't like it. then his father said," every time you can control your anger pull a pin."

The little boy pulling the pin one by one every time he could control his anger.

When all of the pin pulled off the door tho boy said to his father. " daddy, why my door was so ugly? there are so many holes in there.."

Father said to him, " this is the heard of people when you got angry to them." every time you got angry, you make a hole in their heard. the whole can't be repair. even you put something to cover the hole it would leave a mark."


so remember this story every time you got angry...

God Bless you All

L . O . V . E

L O V E

a word, 4 letter. Has a lot of meanings. a basic things in life.

When i was a kid, i don't know what is the meaning of love. I don't know what is it and how it feels. The thing that i know is, i don't want to lose some person. like my mom, or my nanny. In the Sunday School I learn about how to be a good person. Still couldn't get the meaning of love.

when i turn 12 i stared to feel different in my heart. i feel happy when someone pay attention to me. i think that was love.

Every people has their own description of love. depends on their expereance.
For me love is.....

a feeling when we won't lose someone. when we can do everything for someone. when we sacrifice ourselves for someone...

basically, there are 4 kind of love. but for me there are 5.

1. Agape : this is the love of God. The love which always give, without any condition. Even the one u love hates u, u still love them.

2. Storge: The love of family. like when u love your mom, dad, sister, brother, and etc.

3. Filia : The love of friends. has its own condition.love because of condition.

4. Eros : The love with lust. the love of a lovers. the love for a girl and a boy.

5. the love of money: This is the worst love. We easily fall to this kind of love. this kind of love usually we called "greedy". this love could make us do anything. literally "anythings".

This is 5 kind of love. which one you choose??

someone remained me about love in 1 corinthians 13: 4-13,
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails... See More. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

i kinda agree with that. and one more thing Jesus is love. God is love..

To loving someone we have to know what is love, how does it feel. realize how much God love u, loving God.

with this u can love someone entirely.

this is my opinion about love. please feel free to give a comment..^^